i haven't written in a while. i just felt like updating and writing gives me a load off. things are pretty good right now, but of course i feel discontent. i just miss the way things used to be. everyone's changed and i've stayed the same or maybe it's the other way around. i don't know, but at least i'll be busy this whole weekend. i guess the people i thought i was close really aren't the people i thought they were. i just hope school is normal next year. this year was awesome, but definitely not at the beginning when i couldn't bear to show my face. on a lighter note, i like this summer. now for the summer love, i haven't got any =[
I really want to go to semi formal, I wish a boy would ask me, but it's not that big at school. I really want to go, but none of my friends want to go. =/
things are starting to get a little better. I wish they never changed in the first place.
My heart is hurting and my mind is heavy. I hope I can't get through this, I'm alone. I really don't know what to do sometimes and I feel so lost. I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know who anyone is anymore. It hurts and I'm scared. I hope this feeling goes away, it won't let me sleep at night.
